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Holly MathNerd's avatar

You continue to be my personal role model for courage, friend. For the benefit of your readers -- not you, with whom I have these conversations in private -- I will add something. I spent about two years hating every human male as hard as I could. Every single goddamn one. I was so angry at what my father had done and failed to do, and what his pedophile drug dealer had done, and I turned it into an indictment of half of humanity. And I reveled in it. I was proud of it. I wasn't healthy enough to just be angry at the specific men who deserved it. Nor was I brave enough to confront them, adult to adult. So I stewed in my fury and generalized it to all men, everywhere.

I don't regret that time. I think I needed it. I needed to spend years consciously experiencing my anger, to get some practice in the notion that I was human and therefore what happened to me was wrong and I was allowed to be angry. I had no ability to hurt anyone with physical or other power (I was nobody's mother, employer, etc.) so in some ways this was actually harmless, but still -- it was toxic.

And you know what? Nobody -- and I mean NOBODY -- ever gave me any pushback. Nobody but one friend knew the details, but that didn't matter. Men who understood it had something to do with my childhood just nodded, accepting my anger as righteous. Other women either treated me neutrally or egged it on (about half and half -- I ran in circles that skewed to damaged, leftist types, so I'm surprised the egging-on proportion wasn't higher).

Men with a similar history of being deeply wounded by women who might similarly need a period of anger don't get that option. There's no equivalent.

So yes, there are plenty of asymmetries that suck in one direction -- it drives me nuts how often men on social media get angry at me for expressing my emotions (as if their anger isn't, itself, an emotion) -- but there are plenty of asymmetries that go the other way.

And some of them, like this one, are profoundly unfair.

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Nina's avatar

I am a married women and I support this message. It’s true. I have seen this terrible behavior on the part of women, especially younger women. I find it repulsive and embarrassing to our gender. I cringe every time see it. I worry about the damage being inflicted on good men.

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