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lynn tinkham's avatar

so true. i am sober almost 6 months now and still in recovery. the first 3-4 months were terrible with crippling panic attacks and constant horrific anxiety but i pushed thru. Like u i didnt crave the drink right away i craved the numbing. the drink to make it all feel better. make reality easier to cope with. to make time go by faster. to ease the “boredom” to make me feel more alive even tho i drank to oblivion everynight. its just wine! everyone drinks wine. its on tshirts and plaques and bumper stickers. so what if i have it in the car, in the garage, poured in water bottles so no one else sees it. in my night table for easy reach. im fine. im good. i dont have a problem. such bullshit. sober has been hard. im bored. i dont feel fun even tho drunk i was not fun to be around. time goes slower cause u have to think thru the hours of the day. but that is getting better, too. I agree u have to stop for u. not ur spouse. u have to tired of the feeling like shit morning every morning with horrific anxiety because u cant remember what happened the night before. I feel so much better now. energy is better. skin looks better. dropped 10 pounds pretty much right away because i ate like shit when i drank. life is so much better but its taken me 6 months to get here and sometimes its hard to go to a restaurant and see people drink without feeling like i have been left out. but that will come with time. i know it will cause im so much better now than i was during the first 3-4 months. You can do it. If i can, u can. but. actually recovery dealing with ptsd and anxiety is the way. u have to face WHY u drink in the first place. I didnt do AA. Didnt want the higher power aspect driving it. CBT helped me. Figuring out what emotions or thought are really at the root of my anxiety. most of the time the reall thought we autopopulate in our mind is all madeup bullshit and negativity we dont even know we are thinking and shoulding all over ourselves constantly.

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David D'Andrea's avatar

For all your “harsh”ness what I hear from you Josh is mostly love. Right back at you!

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