At major turning points in my life, there’s usually a song that attaches itself to the moment. Today, it is this one.
’Who am I to decide what should be done?
If this is the end, then let it come.
Let it come. Let it rain.
Rain all over me.
Like the tide, let it flow.
Let it wash all over me.’
Beautiful song - sound sentiments. Resignation is sometimes a rational reaction.
I’ve not heard this song before. But, this is how I feel about my role as a physician in this world. The inability to reconcile what I’ve seen the past two and a half years with the certainty that something is very wrong has me doubting every single thing I’ve known about my “calling”....my love, my hobby, my best friend....Medicine. I envy those that are so certain of the “science” - as I am certain of nothing anymore.