Just woke up with serious thoughts on my mind. There’s something about thinking in the morning that brings a kind of clarity I don’t quite get to at other times.
Perhaps it’s an illusion, perhaps not.
Here’s what’s on my mind:
I’m deeply unhappy with our societal compliance. Horrified and scared is a better way to describe it.
The lack of a will to defy illegitimate authority angers me and makes me feel despair, alternately.
Western man and woman, we do not measure up. We are flaccid cows chewing a plastic cud inserted by the Mommy State.
Men are particularly disappointing. What’s wrong with all of you? Why won’t you say BOO to anything? Why are you so tamed, so terrified of saying “no” to societal bullshit?
I don’t think we’re going to get out of our current malaise within my lifetime. This makes me furious.
It still affects me, this slow slide into compliance that I was on until I woke up and changed my mind about how I see the world. People who tell me I’m “too extreme” or that I’m “too angry”—I still allow to much self-doubt to creep in.
It’s hard, often impossible, for me to tease out the constructive from the destructive criticism. Did I truly “go too far” saying “that,” or is it the old programming that makes me fear authority figures (especially women) who imply that I’m going to be punished for being too defiant?
What keeps getting me is even if there's no more open physical conflicts (riots, Rittenhouse, etc.) there's now several BRAND NEW precedents in place for the most harmful bullshit to be "normal", "OK" or even "a good thing" to the masses.
PGE (a local PNW electric company) has been sure to include in their newsletters lately that there may be blackouts in places due to fire "safety". How in the hell am I supposed to take that in good faith after the past four years??
I think many here are predisposed to high anxiety but the fact of the matter is there are concrete reasons for concern. Everyone should be prepping according to the retardations of their region in addition to seeing how they can help address the many new social concerns.
Josh, in my opinion your level of outrage and despair are appropriate to the level of fuckery presenting on so many fronts today. I know you are not a bible person but Jesus is quoted as saying “So because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of My mouth.” You, Josh, are hot with outrage and this is a very good thing.